It begins

It's a HOLI-HOLIDAY!

I wake up this morning feeling really happy. Lately, things have been happening, making me think whether whatever I did was right or wrong. I seem to have put some people in trouble. It makes me feel guilty but sometimes, I need to do what's best for me (sounds pretty selfish). I can't possibly do things that make me upset while pleasing others (as long as my act doesn't bring others harm).

I will be going home tomorrow. I have decided not to go out at all. I will only put out ONE day to go out with a drink with some people whom I have not met in ages. I have counted that I have five storybooks to read which is really cool. It means I am going to be giving all my time to reading. Five books in one month. Isn't that just busy? I am feeling bad but I send out my apologies to all my friends. Stefanie and Ze Xuan postponed their trip to 14th December. I think I will be able to go out for lunch and a short tour with them but I won't be going North to Penang and Sungai Petani. I need some time for myself, too, to reminisce certain things.

I am really bored in Subang Jaya now. I haven't even started clearing up all my things. I haven't even started packing that is.

Anyway, here is something cute that Emily drew for our class.

That sudden pang

I think my withdrawal symptom is really severe. I am suddenly hit by a pang of sadness which I can't explain why. I was looking through some pictures and the wonderful memories of them. It's really unbelievable that two weeks gave me such a great time that I can't imagine it's two years since that very day. Suddenly, it's making me tear up. I really must go to Singapore next year after I finish my course. I must save up so that I can get my own tickets and cash. I will figure out about my accommodation later. Even if I don't get to meet up with everyone, I must get to see Jonathan Tan and Wei Jie. I really miss the both of them so dearly. The only thing I have from Jonny is Melby. He gave me Melby.

Anyway, today is the last day of college for Semester 2. We have our holidays filled with homework and assignments. Our teachers are lovely, aren't they? Anyway, I think I am going to miss college during the break although I very much love to go home. It's filled with fun. I am going to miss a lot of people, of course. After college today, Amanda and me came to Street Cafe to hang out because Jin Howe wanted to play foosball with the rest of the guys.

Please notice that the picture above is about a XS size mechanical pencil. Isn't that cool? Amanda found it in her house. Anyway, we showed it to all our lecturers. Ms Chandra just laughed. Ms Agnes had no reaction. Ms Lourds says that the pencil has undergone selective breeding which made me burst out laughing. I think the pencil got the short genes from the pencil parents. I think Biology was pretty fun lately.

I have planned my next week. I will be busy all week.

Monday: Put up the Christmas tree.

Tuesday: Write Christmas cards.

Wednesday: Clean my room.

Thursday: Clean Little Sweetheart, my piano.

Friday: Decorate my room.

Saturday: Stefanie and Ze Xuan are coming to Ipoh.

Sunday: Plan my own solo outing.

Anyway, Chee Cheng is such a pain. He can be so annoying that you rather not talk to him. CHEE CHENG, YOU PAIN!

I saw K-Hottie yesterday. Once again, he gave the signature look and yes, when I turned to look at him, he was already looking. I like his smile. Anyway, I hope to see him again today.

Friends Forever

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of the night in December
I didn't know much of love, but it came too soon
There was me and you and then, it got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone and
We would get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, come whatever
We will still be friends forever

So we get the big jobs and we make the big money
When we look back now, will that joke still be funny
Will we still remember everything we learned at summer school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking that it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, come whatever
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now
Can we survive it out there? Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow and follow us round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town?
I keep, I keep thinking that this is not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, come whatever
We will still be friends forever.

I am really so emotional since yesterday. Amanda was talking about withdrawal symptoms today and I think I am suffering from a serious withdrawal symptom. Young Leaders' Summer School 2007 was two years ago and I still feel like I am there. This is definitely severe. I know two years is a long time and I should have gotten over it but no, I haven't been able to pull through without letting go of that wonderful moment. I guess I am just afraid of losing every memory I have of it. I am glad my friends that I met there help me reminisce each moment and help me stand strong about it.

Anyway, I woke up dreading class today again. However, I really enjoyed the day.

Physics class was really fun when Ms Agnes opened YouTube for us to watch. It's about Michio Kaku and the String Theory. It's really so cool and interesting. We only managed to finish two videos and I am going to continue on the rest myself.

Then, Biology class was even more amazing because we learn about speciation. As Ms Lourds was talking about the mules being unable to reproduce since they are actually made from different species which is a horse and a donkey, I was thinking to myself that it was best that they don't reproduce. After learning genetics, it means that mules are existing due to codominance. One of it's chromosome is from the horse parent and the other is from the donkey parent. Imagine if they reproduce, they won't have just mule children. They would have horses, donkeys and mules as children and probably favouritism would exist. Anyway, you can't possibly imagine a mule, a horse and a donkey calling each other siblings. It's just awkward. In the end, they won't be special already.

Then, it was Mathematics. Ms Chandra said something that just made me burst out laughing. Amanda should have been laughing, too if she weren't that blur. Both of us were stoning - I was staring at the screen in front and Amanda was staring at her paper. Suddenly, Ms Chandra looked at us and said, "Michelle and Amanda, both your brains slowed down already during this two weeks." I just laughed the moment I heard that. Speak of getting 5/100 for my test that day, I still manage to score 74 for my Mathematics overall. I guess, I am still proud of myself.

I am so annoyed with two people. One of my post noted me giving a piece of my mind to someone and then another person has to annoy me. What is wrong with these two people these days?

TWO YEARS AGO

It was two years ago on this very date that I met a wonderful bunch of people. I didn't pay much attention to this day but after a good chat with a really good friend, he reminded me of the importance of this day.

2nd December 2007 was the very start of Summer School. I met a lot of people, made many friends and till this day, they remain as amazing friends despite the distance we are at from each other. Getting to know them was a whole fabulous experience and fostering such a great bond is the greatest gift 2007 offered me.

I really miss my friends so much and talking to them today, catching up with backdated events of each others life made me tear up. Sometimes, I really hope that we are not so much at distant with each other. I haven't been able to talk to all of them everyday but the occasional catch-ups really make me think of all of them.

~Thinking of you as time goes by~

Dedications to Jonathan Tan, Wei Jie, Ambrose, Jan, Sher Reen, Ali, Alice, Vincent, Shi Jing, Kah Men, Chloe, Irfan and the many more.

It's the history to laugh at

Hari ini dalam sejarah: Buat kali pertamanya, Michelle mendapat markah yang teruk dalam ujiannya.

I had a really good laugh in class today over something that isn't so good. I got only 2/40 for Mathematics. It's the first time ever I did so badly for Mathematics (I love that subject a lot and always work for it). This time, I somehow, didn't bother working for it at all. What is wrong with me? Calculating it over hundred, it means I only got FIVE MARKS for a test. Dear me, do I regret this or not? Well, at least, one day in the future, I'll look back and laugh at myself, saying, "At least, I failed a college test before." It's experiences that makes us learn from our mistakes and something that reminds us of our mistakes. However, I don't even feel regretful at all. Something is really wrong with me.

Meeting pulled through good today. I was having the jitters of facing people that I don't know and having to explain to them about the 'Task Paper' game. I was glad to find out that they understood me pretty well. I will be moving on to preparing a better 'Task Paper' game, making up a good list so everyone would have fun.

Anyway, yesterday, I found out something that really made me blow my top. Someone was up to give me a really evil time and I am wondering if that person is trying to bring me down. For his information, please get over me and stop behaving like a desperado. If he wants to be a bitch so badly, don't try to drag me in. Have some courage to be a bitch all by himself! It's like he doesn't want to give my life some peace and still wants to have something to do with me.

TO THE PERSON CONCERNED, I DON'T REALLY GIVE A DAMN ABOUT IT ALL. IF YOU EVEN DARE COME SAY SOMETHING STUPID TO ME, I PROMISE YOU I'LL BE REALLY SHARP AT YOU. YOU KNOW THAT I CAN DO IT BECAUSE I HAVE DONE IT BEFORE!

Jeffery says I am gaining the evil genes from him. I don't really know how it is possible that genes are able to jump from one individual to the next just like that. Anyway, we have agreed not to talk to that stupid someone. Well, he stopped talking to that stupid someone first, so, now, it's my turn.

I met K-Hottie yesterday. I hope I meet him again today. For goodness sake, when will we start talking? It's getting too long. I still like that signature look and the 'Hello' but it's a little less interesting than having something to talk about.

BROKE AND BROKER

I am totally out of cash. I have not a single cent in my pockets anymore. Then, when I wanted to cash out some money, the machine had to stop working and my transaction gets rejected. I think I should just stand around begging. Looks like I should have taken that bowl Chee Cheng offered that day so that I can start begging. I might just sit at my stairs and wait for people to donate some money to me. If one person gives me a ringgit, I would easily make RM60 in a day. That would give me enough money to survive the whole week.

Anyway, today I woke up dreading classes again. I got up really late and had to force myself out of bed to get to class which explained why I arrived a little late, but just in time for class (late meaning later than I usually go). I am starting to dread classes and I have just identified one reason of it. There's this subject that I don't like learning anymore for some "good" reason (not because I hate the subject, that is). I was really blur in class today (so says Amanda). I actually asked Amanda, "Is it Chemistry now?" when I was sitting in Chemistry class with teacher teaching us Electrolysis in front. I still had fun, though, laughing and joking all along. Anyway, I was telling Amanda that I was really full in class today. Then, she asked why no one ever says "I am super empty." Why do people say "I am super hungry." Therefore, from now onwards, I will say, "I am super empty."

Anyway, I haven't gone to Starbucks for almost three weeks by now. That makes it almost a month.

I want to go caroling. For me, the Christmas spirit begins today. It's just 24 more days to Christmas.

I just found out that Jeffery has split personalities. That sounds pretty cool but at the same time, scary.

I have to plan the 'Task Paper' tonight because it is due tomorrow. I don't mind being busy for once.

Now, the song 'Leaving on a Jet Plane' is stuck in my head because I am going to pack up for Sunday. Home sweet home, room sweet room, here I come!

All my bags are packed I'm ready to go
I'm standing here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breaking it's early morn'
The taxi's waiting his blowing his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh baby, I love to go

As if I didn't know earlier

I have already been complaining about today since last week. It's like getting Monday blues even before Monday comes. That is how much I dreaded today. I didn't wish for today to come. I get up feeling like I had a real burden. Why? It's because I have TWO TESTS. Worse of all, I sat for the tests and for Mathematics, I am confirmed getting back a paper with a ZERO written real big on it. I seriously don't know a single thing on the whole paper. It's a history of my life - FIRST TIME GETTING A ZERO ON MY PAPER! It's pretty amazing how I play good little girl all along and decide to get that image off during college years. I haven't copied in any tests or exams and this is the first time I actually did it. I actually took my notes out during Chemistry. At least, even if I did badly, I know for once in my life, I erase of the good girl image and had fun being bad girl for one minute.

Meeting today was really cool. It was so fun. We had so much fun time laughing. The nice thing about this meeting is that even if we don't know each other, we blend in well. We get to know each other through talking and suggesting. Then, Fifi and me stayed back after meeting to hang out with the teacher. He is so funny. We talked a lot of nonsense and made endless jokes. I can't wait for meeting on Wednesday. Anyway, I have to plan 'Task Paper' game. I don't mind planning, really. I must draw out something really good and present it on meeting this coming Wednesday. I really look forward to meeting.

Hari ini dalam sejarah: Buat kali pertamanya, Michelle menggunakan notanya ketika ujian dan membincangkan jawapan bersama kawannya.


I can't wait to go back to Ipoh. It's going to be so nice to laze on my bed with my books all around me. I want to get out my Teddies so they would be accompanying me as I read. I am going to hug Christmas teddy. Anyway, I gave up on my Christmas socks. I think I'll go back to Ipoh to get it. When I go back, I am planning on disappearing so everyone shouldn't even bother looking for me.

Ashveer was pretty emotional is class today although he says there's nothing when I asked. Anyway, he says my past posts has been a lot about K-Hottie.